Lately I’ve been accepting how I’ve actually been feeling lately. I’ve been down since I moved here. Which is surprising to me, because I was so excited to move to the city, that I wouldn’t even admit to myself how I’ve actually been feeling. I’ve been so broke lately. And hating my job. I know I need to spend some time looking for a new job. Yet there are only so many hours in the day. Tomorrow I can look? Yet I wanted to make more money tomorrow too… I’m definitely going to brunch in the morning. After that, we’ll see.
On to an important topic that has been coming to my attention lately that I need to fix. I have these 2 major beliefs/reoccurring thoughts that I need to change lately. One: A belief that I am not good enough for others. And two: A constant worry that someone doesn’t like me. I want to get rid of these two issues in my life. There is a constant theme in my life of not feeling good enough, issues with self-esteem, etc. I
want need to change this about myself. It is time. I am 29 years old. I need to get over this. I look at these other people in my life, and I think how they don’t seem to struggle like I do. So if these thoughts predominate my life, then how can I get out of the habit? What do I do to get out of the habit? Say a thought comes up again. What do I tell myself to start to change this pattern of thinking? “oh, I think this person doesn’t like me, bc they did this….” then how do I go about changing these thoughts?